It breaks my heart to be honest. I know I will not continue like this forever. I have my dreams, so to speak, my way of life. and a need to a least encourage everyone I know that they can too live a better life than that....then this. That this monotonous path of false freedom isn't the answer to our sorrow, our struggle, our big empty......there are times where I feel we are on a sinking ship and nothing can save us.....then there are times when the sun hits my face in this restless dessert and I feel as though I can do anything and everything is possible....I know soon I will have to surrender to my own will and perhaps even become less apart of there world....in some instances, detached to our modern world. but really its an awakening. my eyelids are slowly opening and i am waiting to see what things look like again.

There will be people who look at this and say "That's life."

That's not life. Stop accepting and start questioning.

while I'm at work........